Taking a Break

I am going to be taking a break from trying to lose weight. I have been depressed pretty much on and off since middle school, but in the last two months it has gotten to the point where I can't deal with it by myself any longer (none of this has been diagnosed but I'm 99% sure I have depression, possibly atypical depression). Hopefully I can make it to the doctor at the beginning of next week.


The reason I have decided to put my diet on hold because of depression is that I do not want to see this turn into an eating disorder. I strongly believe that I need to get my mental health under control before I do anything drastic (especially a diet because I think one must be very emotionally strong before making changes like this).


Once I get this under control everything might be a little easier. At my best I am a morning person, but lately it has been a struggle to get out of bed. I believe once I get this fixed I'll be able to wake up early and go to the gym.


I am still on a mission to lead a healthier life, it has just shifted from physical heath to mental health.

Discouragement.

I came home to find out that, even though I've been dieting for 3 weeks with only 1 splurge day, that my BMI had dropped .02


My diet used to be awful... how could this happen? I feel slightly smaller... is it all in my head?


A factor might be stress. As I was venting to my mother about this last night, she said that her body held a lot of weight in because of stress. I'm going to work on taking vitamins to help this.


I don't expect to drop that much weight right away, but after how bad my diet was, I figured that I would have dropped SOME weight!


Just keep pressing on...






My absolute deadline is Halloween. I'm getting a Sailor Moon Cosplay for Halloween (which is also my anniversary with my boyfriend...)